I thought I understood this verse. He asked me if I had sins, I said no because Jesus died to take away my sins. He told me this was salvation. I immediately ran to my brother and told him that I had just been born again. He was so happy he woke up my parents and told them I was saved. I lived my life from then on really thinking I was saved. I tried to live a good Christian life, even doing a lot of church activities. When I was 18, I heard about a story for the first time that you didn't get salvation but you think that you got saved, and I thought what if I wasn't saved? The thought of possibly going to hell really scared me, but I suppressed those feelings by finding verses in the bible that told me I had eternal redemption.I kept immersing myself in church activities. In 2009 I even accepted the role of being the young adult leader in Chicago. I have been in this Moim for so long, that I knew exactly what I was supposed to be doing as a born again Christian. I listened to sermons, read the bible, and even led the young adults in Chicago. During the summer North America conference I worked really hard. I worked hard during conferences to show people I knew that we needed to work hard to spread the gospel.While doing all this I also lived a very worldly life. While working at an airline I met a lot of new friends, and I went drinking a lot. Sometimes I would drink on Friday, go to a Saturday church meeting, and then drink again right after the meeting was over. I kept telling myself it was ok because all my sins were already taken care of, and because I was trying to live a good Christian life. That so called Christian life was just a cover for me; I was enjoying all the benefits of a sinner. I didn't even read the bible much on my own, unless I was scared or someone told me to read. These worldly things did not make me question my salvation because I truly believed that I was born again. In 2011 I had an opportunity to work in Seattle. I was happy to hand over the young adult leadership role, and start making money to live on my own. Not listening to my father's advice, I took a break from School to work in Seattle. Of course since I wanted to be a good Christian I went to church in Seattle and Vancouver for the first couple months I was there. At one point I was driving from Seattle to Vancouver 2-3 weeks a month. This only lasted about 3 months, and then I slowly stopped going to church in Vancouver. I even stopped going to church in Seattle, even though the church was only 10 m

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